My heart is beating fast. Why is he here?
My eyes immediately fall upon the table, set for two and adorned with a crisp white tablecloth. The sound of soft music playing in the background and the gentle flicker of candlelight look splendid. I look around. Most of the tables are empty.
Did he plan this date?
Did he choose this dress for me?
Did Lena know?
“Here you go Miss Avery,” the hostess says, and Miles turns.
He catches my gaze, a warm smile spreading across his face.
A strange, overwhelming emotion takes over. I want to turn away and leave.
He gets up and takes a step towards me, and I swallow hard. It’s barely been a week. How did I forget how handsome and tall he is? Looking at him always feels like a fresh breath of air. His tailored navy blue suit fit his broad shoulders and narrow waist. M always has a confident grace in him.
“Please Avery… take a seat,” he breathes.
The hostess leaves us alone. I nod and comply.
His dark Collins hair is styled neatly. His piercing blue eyes linger on me with a hint of curiosity. There is a sense of longing inside me. That heartache… I am trying to suppress it by keeping myself busy.
“I wonder what I should call you?” I ask, without meeting his eyes, picking the corner of the tablecloth with my finger.
The table is beautifully set with the candles in middle, and the light ambience is perfect. But it doesn’t make me feel cheerful.
I don’t know how I feel. Sad or angry? I am definitely not excited.
The server brings and pours some champagne for us. While I try to remember. I think I am angry at him. My eyes flicker at his face and I look away. Why is it hard to stay outraged at him?
“You know my name, Avery…” he says as the server leaves.
I stay quiet, wondering… Why is he here? Now that I know his secret, does he want a divorce?
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After Sleeping with My Childhood Drinca 1 Pialad 11.
Chapter 86
That would be nice. We wouldn’t have to meet anymore. I don’t have to remember him. I think to myself with bitterness. If someone can have this effect on me in mere weeks. I don’t want to imagine how much he will damage me if we goof around longer.
“Made a fool of me real good,” he says in a light tone and I come out of my thoughts.
“How long have you known?” he asks.
“Not much long… hardly a week.”
“How? What gave me away?”
I quirk my brow. “How what? You tell me, how did YOU figure it out?”
His lips twitch. “I asked first.”
I take a sip and the citrus flavor spreads through my mouth.
“You had a slip of tongue that night.. when you called me at the resort…”
He had called me ‘My Doll…‘ The endearment feels bitter now.
He furrows his brows, trying to remember, then nods.
“That’s possible.. I was-.” he cuts himself in middle but his expression is grim.
I frown and bite my lips, wondering what he was about to say.
“How did you figure it out.. that I know?”
He sighs. “Noha called… and randomly mentioned your business partner… Lena was interested in knowing my name.” He takes a pause then adds, “It wasn’t hard to connect the dots…. the way you are avoiding all my calls… I mean calls from M and Liam…”
I snort. “So many personas you have…” I tease. “Was it a random name?”
He scratches the back of his neck. “He is my close sister. More than a brother to me. Although… Don’t tell this to Noah.. He will throw a tantrum.”
I smile but stay quiet. Unable to form conversation. Thankfully, the server makes her way to us and asks, “Would you like to place an order?”
“Sure,” Miles says lightly and places his order.
I hastily open the menu, unable to focus or decide.
My face is going hot. What is happening to me today?
“High Roller Sushi Roll is nice,” Miles offers. “Or the lobster…”
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“Sushi will do,” I tell the server.
The server leaves, and Miles continues, “That was a stupid game… But I enjoyed it Avery… I hope your feelings were likewise.”
Yes, it was… until it wasn’t anymore.
“We decided to keep it this way. Didn’t we? It was supposed to be fun. Nothing serious,” he says, and I frown.
Is he implying that I fucked it up? Because I involved my feelings into it? I meet his eyes. Fury rising within me.
“We decided we will keep the game at Dom’s club,” I tell him in a hard voice.
“I didn’t ask you to come into my life. You decided to get involved when you asked for a lift that night…. or save my fucking life.” I add, angrily.
Or stay at the hospital the whole damn night. Assign a bodyguard.
I want to yell at him. Why?
Why does he care?
This is why I am angry at him. I am tired and angry of his considerate ass.
He is compassionate and loving one moment and pushes me away the next minute. It’s confusing as hell.
He looks at me, confused. It makes me even more furious. Tears sting my eyes and I hastily change the topic to compose myself. If I don’t, I will end up brawling like a baby.
“And Noah? I thought I worked hard to get his contract… Did you put him to spy on me?”
A couple sitting a few seats away from us look towards us and I clear my throat. Reminding myself to keep my voice
low.
Miles raises his hands in defense.
“He asked! Okay? Nothing else… He mentioned he was too tired handling his shows. I suggested your name… You are my legal wife for fu–k sake… that’s the least I should know about you… it was completely his choice to choose you.”
He shakes his head.
“I don’t understand, Avery. Tell me what did I do? Why are you so damn angry?”
I bite my inner cheek to stop giving him a reaction.
That’s the problem. He knows nothing. And If I tell him I have feelings for him, he will probably laugh… or will think I’m just some clingy whore.
I clear my throat and reply, “It’s nothing. We aren’t supposed to mingle with each other. Now that we have cleared this up. I should leave..”
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Chapter 86
“Stop right there. Avery.” His hard voice holds me.
I pause and blink. He cannot boss me around. Who does he think he is?
I should be furious. I should refuse and walk away. But for some strange reason, I comply.
“Where is Noah? This was supposed to be an urgent meeting M…” I ask him softly, keeping my gaze low. I am confused. Do I like him bossing me around?
“You cannot just hijack my business meetings.” I add, to distract myself from the uncomfortable thought process. I don’t want to look closely into my feelings right now. I am too raw. Especially when he doesn’t want the same thing
Fuck. I should leave.
“I have to leave if he cannot come. I am not hungry anyway.”
“DONT!” He says in a tight voice and a shiver passes through my spine. “You will have this dinner with me and we will talk.”
He gets up and stands beside me. I look up and he holds my chin tight.
“Answer me.”
It’s like I am back at the barn.
“Yes Sir,” I whisper.
He hums in approval.
“I can see your training is setting a tone for you. That’s good to see.” he says, as he traces my lip with his thumb. “At least you would be obedient now.”
He takes his seat again as I try to process. My body is feverish with desire, not anger. Nipples poke through my silk dress
I swallow hard. I hastily take a sip of champagne, then meet his eyes. He notices my breasts and gives me a smug smile. Humiliation creeps on me at the same time, ashamed that my body is betraying my mind.
It’s not a good idea. Then why do I want him?
I cross my arms, but it doesn’t do much to cover what I want to hide. I hadn’t realized the training would affect me like this. I think to myself, breathing hard.
Being a submissive was supposed to help me relax and descress. I am an overdinker. I thought maybe if a Dum decides for me I would feel better. More secure and fulfilled.
Then why do I have this anxiety sneaking up on me? Is it because my mind and body are nur in sync ye
I am not your sub Miles” I whisper.
Chapter 86
“Do you want to be?”
“I am not sure.”
A/N: I have censored words to avoid review on this chapter. Editors are on holidays for 10 days and I don’t want this to go pending. Jan 19,2023. Fingers crossed.
