Chapter 6
His next words stopped abruptly after seeing the empty bedroom. Because there was no more of Olivia’s things in the room. The quilt was neatly placed on the bed, as if no one had ever lived there.
Where is Olivia?}
Where did she go?”
Paul looked at the empty house and was so scared that his whole body was shaking. His heart was beating wildly, as if he had encountered a huge blow.
He began to search everywhere, but all of Olivia’s things were gone. It was as if the time he spent with Olivia was just a dream.}
Paul knelt on the ground helplessly, covering his face with his hands and crying bitterly. He seemed to have really lost Olivia. He had lost the girl who loved him the most.
Suddenly he saw two documents on the bedside of the bedroom.
What was this?
Raul walked closer and took a closer look. He froze in place for a moment. His heart was suddenly aching.
Olivia was pregnant?
Why didn’t she tell him why she wanted to abort the child?>
He suddenly thought of the day in the club, when Olivia was holding the examination report from this hospital. It turned out that she found out that she was pregnant that day and wanted to give him a surprise.
Paul tightly grasped the abortion report, leaning against the cold wall. His heart was aching so much that he couldn’t breathe. He was shrouded in a layer of sadness, which made people particularly sympathetic.”
At that time, I had landed in Ireland and I felt a little panic when I looked at the strange city.”
After all, I once thought that Paul could give me a home, but later he betrayed me. Then could I still find a home here?}
At the moment, my abdomen was cramped. Every time I thought about losing my child, I felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry.”
I sat on the sofa blankly, shrinking myself in. It seemed that only in this way could I get a sense of security.”
My child, it was your mother who did not protect you well. I hope that in the next life, you could still be my child.
When I closed my eyes, tears flowed down the corners of my eyes. I felt that my heart was cut open by someone.}
The longing for Paul and the guilt for the child wrapped me tightly, suppressing me to the point of being unable to breathe.“]
In the middle of the night, I suddenly woke up from my sleep. The whole person seemed to be fished out of the water and the sofa was
wet.
I couldn’t even tell whether it was sweat or tears, I just knew that my heart was as bitter as if I had eaten sour grapes.}]
I stood up and went to the kitchen to pour a glass of water, then I started to check my e–mails. The e–mails from Paul had already shown 99 plus. I didn’t open any of them.
It would be a lie to say that I didn’t feel bad, but I didn’t want to continue to be with him without dignity.
Since he chose Emma, I would never get entangled. I took a long breath and leaned against the window to look at the stars in the sky. They were so far away, so far that my vision gradually blurred and I couldn’t see their position clearly.
However, they were so close, so close that I knew every star that Paul had told me about.
When I opened my eyes again, I fell asleep leaning against the window. I felt so bitter as if I had been beaten.
I stood up and stretched. I walked out the door and decided to find a job. I would support myself in the future. Yet, the reality was far crueller than I imagined. I got no job and no education. I was just a canary kept by Paul. Then how could I leave him and be self–reliant?}
